If you were shown how you wil die but to avoid it – it would be great pain. Would you go through the pain or let God decide ?
If I were shown how I will die—
and it came with a warning:
“You can avoid this…
but it will come with great pain.”
I think I’d pause.
Not from fear.
But from reverence.
Because to be given even a glimpse of your death…
means you’ve been trusted with the truth.
And I would ask myself:
Is it pain I’m trying to avoid—
or the price of becoming who I was meant to be?
I’ve met pain before.
The kind that cracks you open in the middle of an ordinary Tuesday.
The kind that rewrites how you pray, how you breathe, how you carry your own name.
And every time,
even when I didn’t want to,
I survived it.
So maybe I wouldn’t run.
Maybe I wouldn’t hand the decision over to heaven like a trembling child.
Maybe I’d look at that pain and say:
“If this is the doorway…
if this is what it takes to not die with a silenced soul…
then let me walk through it.”
Because I trust God.
But I also trust the fire He put in me.
The one that knows some endings aren’t meant to be soft.
Some are meant to be honest.
Earned.
Lived all the way through.
Not skipped.
And if this is the death that breaks the generational chains,
or the one that redeems the silence I inherited,
or the one that writes the final chapter of my truth—
then don’t save me from it.
Let me feel it.
Let me finish it.
Let me die awake.
This reflection responds to the deeper soul prompt:
“If you were shown how you will die, but told it would be great pain, would you go through it or let God decide?”
And to the unspoken invitation beneath it:
“Would you choose your fate, even if it hurt—if it meant dying in your full truth?”
— from the edge of surrender, Hellènic Muse
Hellènic Muse 